It's amazing what can happen in a few days...

So, it's official, Roman has told me that he only see me as friends and not as boyfriends. He doesn't want me to hurt, because he thinks we can be good friends, but right now, I need some time. He wanted to see how I was feeling, but I really didn't want to let him know, because he cannot really help.

I was able to be strong until I walked into the door. Not only did I get a notice that the tenant's rent for March is still owing, I had to deal with my emotions. This is the first time I have cried because my heart has been broken... Right now, it feels like there are a thousand shards of glass in my heart. How could I have been so stupid? I should have just realize that it was going to be a friendship and never opened up.

That was the longest metro ride ever... Usually, it's six stops, and we have a great time on the six stops. But tonight, I was being strong, and didn't want to cry in front of him. And I didn't. I'm proud of that.

At least there is some closure. Do I have any regrets? No. It's just upsetting that Roman ended up being one of the men who didn't take a chance on me, and not someone who wanted to take it to the next level with me. But you can't force emotions.