Boy, am I glad that I was being boring last night...

I am talking to Roman online, and he told me that he was with Olivier at Kilo (a cafe in the village) yesterday. Luckily, if it was in the afternoon, I was at my baby shower, and if it was in the evening, I decided to stay in and work on my paper and watch two movies. If a friend invited me to Kilo, and I went, I probably would have lost my appetite. However, maybe the powers above may think that I am ready, and put me to the test. I don't know. But anyway, since I didn't end up going there, the powers up high must think I'm not ready.

Roman tells me that Olivier is busy, and that they don't get to see each other a lot... Well, that's too bad. However, I did tell him, "Well, absense makes the heart grow fonder." But he told me that he doesn't know about that.

Woah, OK... If this is the guy whom you want to start a relationship with, how can being away from him not make you want to see him more? It should makes you want to see him more, and treasure the time that you can spend with him. And also, on the other end... No matter how busy I am, I make time to see a person whom I'm interested in. Because if I'm interested in them, they deserve my time, even if it's only a half hour or an hour. I do agree that school is important, as well as work, but a significant other is also important. You do not expect to brush him/her aside and expect everything to be hunky-dorry. No matter how tired I am, I make time for my significant other, or someone I am interested in, even if he works nights, and can only call me at 1:30 a.m. to chat for an hour. I still make the time to chat, and then go to bed at 2:30 a.m..

If Roman thinks that he can tap back into having a relationship with me, when/if his relationship doesn't work out with Olivier, then he's sadly mistaken. You do not tell me that you only want to be friends, and think that you can rekindle something. If you are old enough to shatter someone's heart into a million pieces, you are mature enough to handle the possible mistakes of your own actions. And perhaps, if one or two people are not ready and willing to give all of themselves to the other person, working in school and work, maybe neither of them are ready for a relationship.

As Whitney Houston sings in her song: "See I'm moving on, and I refuse to turn back. See, all of this time, I thought I had down for a man... It turns out... You were making a fool of me yeah!" (It's not Right but It's Okay - Thunderpuss Remix)