The Sentinel

On Sunday, April 23, 2006, I went to see The Sentinel. This movie is about a secret service agent who is getting framed for attemping to kill the President. Of course, this movie is pretty American, and they only used Toronto because it was the only city that Americans know. In fact, there was a scene that they shot in a shopping mall, and I believe it was shot at Sherway Gardens, which is a shopping centre at the southwest end of the city, in Etobicoke. I thought it was an okay action flick (since action flicks are more about action and not about storyline), but Roman felt that it was two hours of his life he'll never get back. What do you expect, it's an action flick. They don't usually have a good story line...

Today was basically the following: Roman had expressed interest in a greasy spoon breakfast, so he asked me yesterday to give him a call when I got up. So, I did, we met for greasy spoon breakfast at 1:00 p.m.. We finished at about 2:30 p.m., he went to the McGill library to do some research for his paper, and I went and tutored someone linear algebra. Then, we met up at 4:15 p.m. again, and we walked to AMC to see the movie. After, Roman wanted to try this restaurant where he thought there were hamburgers, but there wasn't. So, we ended up walking in the rain to Mr. Steer, where there were hamburgers. Then, we went to Second Cup, and he had a iced coffee drink, and I had a chamomile tea.

Roman told me that Olivier is not talking to him right now, because he's concerned about getting mono. Of course, I kind of did not need to know about it. And I repeated that, "Didn't I say that you two need to communicate more?", and it's true, they do, but then it also takes two to communicate. And since Olivier isn't talking... Roman remarked that he felt Olivier was a bit selfish... I suppose this is the part where I should say, "Told you so." But I decided to not say anything.

I do not understand why Roman is spending more time with me than with his boyfriend. He should be having breakfast with his boyfriend, he should be seeing movies with his boyfriend. He should be having dinner, with his boyfriend. He should be having dessert with his boyfriend. And yes, I am a friend, and you don't spend all of your time with your boyfriend, but I really feel that he should be seeing Olivier more.

Perhaps Roman is starting to regret his decision. Or, perhaps I'm being wishful, and thinking or hoping that he's regretting his decision. And my friend Nima, with whom I chatted tonight, asked me a very valid question: "Would you take him back?"

I don't really know... Part of me is thinking, "I can't afford to take him back, because I'm afraid that he'll hurt me again, and in the words of Willa Ford: 'I won't look back... I don't want you, I don't need you, so let me tell you where it's at... I'm through with you... Did ya' understand that?'". However, another part of me is thinking, "if he's willing to make amends, and he's man enough to admit that he was wrong, and willing to start a relationship with me, then I should take the chance with him."

I also wonder if the guy whom I tutored is gay... While we were tutoring, there was someone who walked by, and my tutee totally checked him out. I was working on a problem, and I thought, okay, who is he (my tutee) checking out? And I saw a black man walk by. So, either my tutee is gay, or he thought that he knew the guy that walked past. The tutee also accidentally put his feet on mine, but he quickly pulled away. Anyway, the weird things that happen.

I also don't think Roman paid me back for the movie ticket. He didn't have any cash, so I bought him the ticket, and he said that he'd pay me back later. I suppose perhaps he meant later on in the week or something.