I thought that my evening would be spent at home, doing laundry. However, after going to a greasy spoon breakfast, I got home and I found a message on the machine from Roman, who said that Leo (another friend) wanted to go to to the Old Port (Vieux Port) of Montreal, and asked if I wanted to come along. Since I'm interested in going to the Old Port - I didn't get a chance to go the last time I was there with my parents and the family friend, I thought I would go.
It was fun, quiet, and the ambiance was nice. However, it was a Sunday night, so not too many things were open. I also wasn't able to get a Beaver Tail. But it's fine, it was fun anyway.
It was weird also, that Roman suggested that we meet beforehand, at 9:00 p.m., and grab a bite to eat. And then when I met him, it turned out that he wasn't too hungry. So, I suggested we get bubble tea. Unfortunately, the place that we went to for the bubble tea was not very good, and he didn't like his. We walked past a Dairy Queen, and he got a Moolatte. It was at around 10:00 p.m. that we met up with Leo.
Roman also accompanied me to eat after we finished walking around in the Old Port. This was very nice, sweet and gentlemen-like of him, but I wonder if something is developing or not from his end. He was really interested in learning Chinese/Cantonese expressions tonight. But perhaps this stems from the fact that Leo talked a bit about it, and I helped some Chinese visitors to attempt to find an address - in Mandarin, which is not my forte!
The next time that I will see Roman is probably Tuesday night, when we will hopefully be seeing
Just My Luck.
Roman was also having a discussion with me about how he's thinking of getting a second job once Leo leaves Montreal. I was a bit sad about that because that means he'll have less time to spend with me. However, I shouldn't be, since he's not my boyfriend. I did point out the fact that he'll have very little free time, especially when he could be working 40 hours at one job, and then working another job at night. But he argued that he'll still have on average two afternoons/early evenings free, as well as one or two weekend evenings free.
I don't realize why I was having this discussion with him, it's his life and he can do whatever he wants with it.
I'm confused about where this is going... I'm concerned about where this is going... I don't want to be hurt again... I'm afraid that if I put my heart into it again, then I'll get the old heave-ho again when he finds someone else who is quote on quote
more attractive. I also don't think it's fair to the guy whom I'm kind of seeing right now. (On and off, with his schedule, it's tough - he works nights).
If Roman feels that he wants to take this friendship to a relationship level, he has to make the move himself, and there has to be some major changes.
Sometimes, I listen to songs, and the lyrics made me wonder if perhaps Roman is thinking that he made a mistake. For example, the song by BBMak -
Back Here:
Baby set me free From this misery
I cant take it no more
Since you ran away, Nothing's been the same
Don't know what i'm living for
Here i am, so alone
and there's nothing in this world I can do...
Chorus:
Until you're back here baby
Miss you, want you, need you so
Until you're back here baby yeh
There's a feelin inside, I want you to know
You are the one and i can't.... let you go
So i told you lies, Even made you cry
Baby i was so wrong.
Girl i promise you, now my love is true...
This is where my heart belongs
'Cause here i am, so alone
and there's nothing in this world I can do
Chorus
And I wonder...
Are you thinkin of me?
'Cause I'm thinkin of you.
And I wonder...
Are you ever comin back in my life?
'Cause here i am, so alone
and there's nothing in this world i can do...
Chorus
Until you're back here baby.... (repeat until the end)
And then there's this song: STEPS -
It's The Way You Make Me FeelIt's the things that you do
So physical
It's the things that you say
So flammable
You know I can't resist
Boy it's such a shame
Do you belong to another?
I don't wanna hurt nobody
But my heart just can't hold back
Chorus:
It's the way you make me feel (The way that you make me feel)
Spinning my world around
Tell me how can I walk away
I don't care what they say
I'm loving you anyway
It's the way you make me feel
I'm gonna make you mine
It's not impossible
Got to let you know
I'm irresistible
Baby can't you see
You're the one for me
But you belong to another
I don't wanna hurt nobody
But my heart just can't hold back
Chorus:
It's the way you make me feel (The way that you make me feel)
Spinning my world around
Tell me how can I walk away
I don't care what they say
I'm loving you anyway
It's the way you make me feel (Make me feel, make me feel)
Ooooh (Make me feel, make me feel)
When I look into your eyes
Every time you smile at me
Oh, I go weak inside
Baby I just can't hide
My love...
Chorus:
It's the way you make me feel (The way that you make me feel)
Spinning my world around
Tell me how can I walk away
I don't care what they say
I'm loving you anyway (Anyway)
It's the way you make me feel (make me feel)
Ooooh Make me feel, make me feel
Tell me how can I walk away
I don't care what they say
I'm loving you anyway (Anyway)
It's the way you make me... Feel